thanks for the unforgettable 3 days of makrab KMHB UNJ :)

Hello there?
It's been like a month i don't post anything on this beloved blog. But well whatsoever

Oke,
these are what they (the KMHB's) are thinking about me.

Tiwi

rajin, jago ngomong

* kau punya kemampuan lebih didirimu, tunjukkan dan berani mengekspresikannya.. buat KMHB bangga memilikimu...
*jangan diem aja.
*aktif di KMHB

(1) - asah terus bahasa inggrisnya, rajin datang ke kmhb, sering berkoar yang positif
(jangan diambil hati) (like this)

=> ayoo semangat, anggep semua yang tiwi lakuin baik itu buat KMHB ataupun yang lain
sebagai hal yang tiwi suka, okee :)
tunjukan kontribusimu... (like this)

=> tunjukan kontribusimu di KMHB...!!!
terus semangat...
terus ajarin Bhs inggris iaa... hehe (like this)

=> baik, lok ngejelasinnya pelan2 ya ,,, hehehe ,,,
main2 kesekret KMHB ya,,, KMHB JAYA,,, SEMANGAT,,,

- kalo ngomong jangan cepet" yaa..
jangan suka bengong jg

- baik, pendiem, terus belajar ngomong R iya haha bercanda.
ajarin gue bahasa inggris
makasih tadi malem udah ditemenin

* baik, disayang teman, perhatian, panik, hehe..

* ajarin B. inggris ya.. tiwi baik, gampang panik, suka ga ngeh, baik banget...

- baik, kalem banget neh...

* jangan suka diem wi, banyak omong yah biar jadi rame KMHB...

* jangn malu malu ya di KMHB

* hai cantik, aku tunggu di KMHB yaaaa...

* wah makin jd sailoormoon aja nich...

* tiwi ajarin tenses & grammar donk! hhehe. :D

* Rajin ke sekre buat ajar TOEFL

* tiwi : rajin rajin ke KMHB ya. kalau punya kemampuan b.inggris, tolong bantu ajari yang lainnya





intinya : gue harus banyak mngomong, harus rajin ke KMHB, asah terus b.inggrisnya.

thanks for the comments :)

and these are some pictures :





i do love them :)

just wanna say THANKS SO MUCH for the unforgettable 3 days of makrab KMHB UNJ (19th 20th 21st Nov 2010 :)

wild hope

pick me up when i have nothing to hold on
pick me up when i am seriously depressed
pick me up when i have no reason to stay

call me up when boredom hits me
call me up when i get insomnia
call me up when i have no one to talk with

if only i could tell
if only i had chance to speak up
i only you knew
if only you could read the signs
cause i do really hope you are my destiny

is this called wild hope?

God, i beg. if he is my true mate then please make us become closer day by day. please.............

It is over!

I give up before trying!
Let it be the last failure for my life

What the hell am i doing here?

Im not an expert in grammar
i have limited vocabularies
i hate writing
my ears hardly listen to any speech
i can't speak fluently

So, WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE?

...

...

...

LEARNING!

you can call us ROSES :)

helooooooooooooooooooo there :)
what is up?




nah seminggu yang lalu kan ada acara penyambutan maba tuh di jurusan gue, it's called WF, stands for Welcome Freshmen, nah setiap kelas mesti wajib kudu kasih performance di acara itu.

well, kelas gue mulai bingung tuh mau perform apa soalnya dikasih taunya dadakan. ehmm sebenernya udah lama sih tau bakal ada wf tapi ga tau kalo mesti perform.
akhirnya sang sutradara kelas (aszzzyeeeek) sifa punya ide buat bikin drama. konsepnya mini drama musikal.

ceritanya nih ya .........

hana jadi anaknya sifa nah si hana minta diceritain tentang cerita masa cintanya sifa waktu muda dulu. nah cerita deh tuh sifa. nah yang jadi sifa waktu muda tuh si may dan suaminya sifa waktu muda si ardi. ceritanya si may suka sama ardy karena si ardy kasih kunci mobil, rumah dan motor ke may (dasar matreeeeeeeeee hahahah) eh pas ending ternyata si ardi bukan orang kaya melainkan tukang duplikat kunci -_________-

nahhhhh akting may sama ardi tuh bener bener (ga tau deh gue speechless) yaaaak pokoknya intinya pointnya adalah mereka berhasil buat NGAKAK penonton.

oya ditengah drama ada penampilan dance. gue ikutan dance lhoooo (karena body gue gede jadi yaa menuhin tempat aje dah ahahhaah). dan bunch of thanks to papat :) yang jadi koreografer kita. si ppat ini lincaaaaaaaaaaah banget dah.


hasilnyaaaaaaaa jeng jeng jeng kelas gue menang lhoooooooooo
our hard work had been paid, guyyyyyyys :)
ga nyangka kalo kita bisa menang soalnya latihan cuma sehari dan baru bikin dancenya pas pagi hari.

oya nama buat kelas gue adalah "sebut saja mawar"
nah history nama itu adalah

kan kita pake baju merah semua. yaaaak paling ngejreng banget warnanya. nah ditanya tuh sama ka nadi

ka nadi : kok warnanya pada merah nih?
sifa : karena merah itu cintaaaaaaaaaaa :)

yes red is love!!!!!!!!!!

ka nadi : trus nama kelasnya apaan nih?
jeng jeng jeng bingung nih kita pas ditanya nama kelas soalnya kita emang ga nyiapin nama buat kelas. eh tiba-tiba si sigit asal ngomong
sigit : sebut saja mawar
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak jadilah nama kelas gue "SEBUT SAJA MAWAR"
yaaampun namanya -___________-



WF was totally fun!

I do really love my class! 10dikB (sebut saja mawar)

youre my only hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

hmmmmm, hmmmmm, oooooh.

only hope-mandy moore

How can i forget?

What do you feel when you love someone but you're not allowed to speak up?

I have no reason why i have to keep it and leave it all behind. All i know is we probably are not meant to be!

how can i forget you, a lover, who have given me much damn unspeakable hopes?

I hate you as much as i want you

You are leaving as well as things are running without any reason.
I know you just take a look at my silliness but then please can you stop giving me so much damn hopes?

I hate you as much as i want you!

OMYGOD im mature enough to think about love. Ain't I?

I'm officially student of State University of Jakarta

WEHEEEE! I just wanna say HOREEEE i've done MPA! gaaaah it was really tiring week, y'know?

Oke, it started by briefing (august 19th). I felt so dumb and (of course) sleepy! Can you just imagine how tired i was cause i only slept 3 hours at night and had to seat all day long? Gaaah the worst was i didn't really understand about the tasks so ehm oke that was useless briefing for me, yeah stupid me! Pity me! Poor me. But yes yes yes lucky me because though this is fasting month i still could have a lunch =) i throw bunch of thanks to KMHB UNJ who allowed and served us (me and other hindus) to eat and drink =).

The briefing took approximately 10 hours for faculty + department => very tiring day

teng tong tang tong MPA

Opening, august 21st,
we were yelling many times and shouting UNJ SATU! UNJ LUAR BIASA! MPA FBS BERRASA BERAGAM RASA SATU WARNA! HIDUP MAHASISWA! HIDUP RAKYAT INDONESIA!
The opening was just so BLAST and COOL! We released rockets and baloons although that were simple rockets but still COOL! wow!!

3 days of MPA

we were introduced about faculty academic system and yeah there were foreign students who wanted to study bahasa and indonesian culture. They were sooo handsome and pretty hahahaha oops there's korean girl, cutie hahaha i just wish there'd be korean guy hahahahahahaha
then on the 2nd day i got punishment because i made incorrect nametag. oh damn bad! I had to sing balon ku ada lima in english. And the last day was sooo rough, i was so thirsty all day long. There were introductions and attractions by ukm (unit kegiatan mahasiswa) and still had to seat for hours. Most of us (new students) were not paying attention for the attraction at last because we were so tired and bored although actually the ukm attractions were very nice cool and dandy.

Overall, mpa meant TIRING DAYS! I had to wake up 3 am then got home at night and also did the confusing tasks and stuffs.

these are the pictures and two of them (the bottom two) were taken from kak ary's camera ( i just downloaded it) thanks kak ary :)

nametag

Ps : i think im not gonna be good in english department. My english is ehm yeah creepy :(

Goodbye is better than see you

This blog is dedicated to @..........

He used to be my internet friend, i knew him via MSN then we finally met up after a long chat we've made. We talked, chated, and shared everything and he also told me about hard music although i didn't really like hard music such as metal, emo, punk .
He was so friendly and we were so close then i thought he was the only one that i was thinking about.

But

later...
He stayed away from me because he had another girl :(. I was so sad but well that's okay i hoped they would be together forever.

After months later
he broke up with his girl. I was supossed to be happy but in fact i was not! I was afraid he would get hurt :(

now
we are still friend but not that close like we used to be

then he gets to take college in other city, that means we will (maybe) never meet again.


DO YOU KNOW THAT YOU EVER GAVE THE SWEETEST HOPE TO ME?
i want you to know what im feeling rite now yet i dont have that brave to tell you. im so dumb :(
Ehm oke. Whatever. thanks for giving me that colorful memories :)


Take care of yourself! Okay?

I will surely be missing you and the memories of us.


Good bye...
I hope i won't see you anymore cause seeing you is so hurt, you know?

Goodbye is better than see you

Dear my puppy love

What would you do if you missed someone but he/she had passed away?


Last night i dreamed of wisnu who had gone more than 3 years ago! There was no thoughts of him before, he just suddenly appeared into my dream and oh it totally makes me miss him so bad NOW! RIGHT NOW!
I still remember his face, and i profoundly can figure him out.

He was my elementary friend! Nooo nooo he was not only my childhood friend but also my puppy love. Im sinkin down the memories
when we used to chilled, studied, went home, all together! He were so annoying but i loved the way he annoys me. Hahaha i liked him yes i did i did ! And most my friends did either, of course the girls only.

Wish i could back to the moment when we were still little kids and had our first puppy love!

Dear wisnu.. I miss you and thanks for coming into my dream out of the blue :)

Rest in peace buddy :D

Don't know what to think about college

I have no idea what to think about, i just want to post because i think i've to post more often untill this long-term-holiday is over. I dately will take the first college day in august and it says "HELLO CAMPUS LIFE! Would you like to be my friend?" ohh no! Honestly from my deepest lazy sense, I'M NOT READY YET FOR COLLEGE! Can i have addition days for holiday? PLEEEEEASE :(
well ready or not i have to bear it!

Ehm oke i want to share about campus life. I don't want to talk a lot like a damn fussy hahaha because i actually only know lil bit about it!

Ehm i probably want to join with KMHB and study harder and more often because i've to achieve my target! College is so far different as high school. I need to give more ekstra atention to my future job!

To be honest i'm bit nervous about whether i'll be dumb or social-able which i can't predict well i know i ever felt like this before but it's been ages and now i feel this kind of dag dig dug again!

College is also more expensive. Ehm fortunately i entered UNJ (the state university of jakarta) by SNMPTN which is cheaper than other entrance test but well still expense! I wanna pay all the costs by myself although my parents resposible for my education. It seems so proud if i can earn money and stop asking money to parents, right? I wanna be private teacher or honour teacher and hope i get student soon.

I also must realize i can't hang out more often like i did in senior high anymore.


YAA WELL, I WILL MUST ENJOY CAMPUS LIFE. Whatever it is

ENDLESS LOVE >>>>>>> my addiction

oke ceritanya nih ya gue ga ada kerjaan dirumah terus winda bilang "cici tiwi nonton endless love yuk" karena ga ada kerjaan yaudah gue nonton aja meskipun sebenernya agak males juga karena tuh film udah berkali-kali gue tonton dari jaman gue sd dan kayanya sih vcdnya udah ngadat alias kresek2 alias udah rusak deh, tapi ternyata masih bagus (padahal gue beli bajakan dulu hehehe)
dan drama seri Endless Love as known as Autumn In My Heart pun dimulai






daaan yaaak meskkipun udah berkali kali nonton tetep aja gue nangis (lagi).
if you haven't watched this series, WATCH NOW! gue ga mau kasih tau ceritanya yang jelas kalo lo udah nonton ini film sedian tisu deh. ini seri drama asia tersedih selama yang gue pernah nonton.






ceritanya menyentuh banget dan latarnya yaaaaampun indah banget! dipedesaan gitu trus pas musim semi (sesuai judulnya autumn in my heart). gue ga tau apa tempat aslinya sama seperti yang di film atau ga yang jelas GUE MAU KESANA! gue mau ke korea.

selain endless love gue juga suka drama seri korea yang lain

ini gue kasih rekomendasi
1. autumn in my heart (commonly known as autumn in my heart)
2. save the last dance for me
3. sad love song
4. wonderful life
5. full house
6. stairway to heaven
7. sorry i love you
8. brilliant legacy
9. 18 vs 29
10. my sassy girl
dll masih banyak lagi drama korean series yang very recomended !!! =)

you may say im korean lover! yes i am meskipun gue bukan yang addict banget ampe tahu segalanya tentang artis korea dan film-film atau drama seri terbaru korea.
someday, kalo gue udah kerja gue mau nabung biar bisa ke korea SENDIRI! gue maunya ke pergi sendiri aja ga ama siapa-siapa karena gue lebih suka jalan-jalan ke tempat yang sangat gue suka SENDIRIAN! alone is not always bad, rite?

ps : meskipun gue suka korea tapi gue tetap cinta indonesia kok! yep indonesia is my native land of course!

All i want to say is "THANKYOU"

Thanks God for giving me UNJ
Thanks God thanks God :)
youre... ohh i'm speechless. What a kind of you.

Mama, you're still and always the best person in my life!

Papa, you're such a light that always calms me down in whatever condition i am!

Thanks God for giving me super parents! :)
i super love you, my lord, Sang Hyang Widhi Wasa :)

Oh no

I've goten so many hurt love. Yeah my love life is suck! I'm not sure i'll get the rite man cause so far i never get him. You may laugh at me, you may say i'm the unfortunate girl, you may say i'm stupid, yes you may since yes i am!

Love goes along the tears and i know when i face new hope of love i've to be ready for another heart break! OH MY GOD I AM SO EMO :(

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Life seems so easy when you get everything you want without considering the efforts you need.

Talking about my life, it is not that easy although i'm pretty sure i can get rid of the problems i've got!
I've ever been so depressed when i failed SIMAK (University of Indonesia entrance test) and UMB, then my mom offered me study nursing in australia together with cici (my sister), i'm excited too much but the problem is i'm not sure i'll do well in nursing. Okay, thats only a little problem but there is A BIG PROBLEM else that frighten me, you would know if you were me or a part of my family (too privat to be shared). Well, that's the rule, not only all i want, but i also must take some risks to get what i need. It's fair though.

how the hell can i want those and these without considering my ability?
I've to realize i'm just nothing without efforts! I'm confessing i'm too tired of failure but when i stuck on the failure i won't bear the lights in front of me! And now i know that believing in my dream seems to be the easy reason to adhere to my efforts.

Now, i've to reset my plan because i still expects my goals which someday i can reach them! Yes pretty indeed i can!

Oke, i'll take some risks and efforts then i'll get that success.

1. Waiting for UNJ result
2. If number *1 fail, taking an ielts in order to apply student visa
3. If number *2 doesn't run well, taking a year off and getting the second chance for SIMAK and STAN next year.

I let God do his Goodness because i believe in you, my Lord, SANG HYANG WIDHI WASA :)

I have my own view about "PERFECT"

Gue bukan orang pintar, jauh dari kata cantik dan ga terlalu aktif di organisasi atau terkenal atau apalah. Tapi gue ngerasa hidup gue cukup SEMPURNA! Oke dulu gue ga percaya ada ke'SEMPURNA'an di dunia, well, itu karena gue lihat kesempurnaan itu adalah sesuatu yang baik tanpa ada cacat sedikitpun. Itu dulu! Sekarang gue punya pandangan atas kesempurnaan menurut gue sendiri.
Bagi gue kesempurnaan itu merupakan gabungan dari baik dan buruk sehingga memiliki arti dan makna bagi hidup kita sendiri.

Dan hidup gue cukup sempurna.

Orang tua gue bukan pejabat atau pengusaha yang dengan gampangnya memberi apapun yang anak mau demi kesenangan anak tentunya. Orang tua gue adalah orang tua yang harus bekerja keras untuk memenuhi kebutuhan anak bukan untuk kesenangan anak, tapi untuk sebuah pengertian yang mengantarkan anak pada pemikiran dewasa sehingga anak-anaknya bisa memenuhi kesenanganya sendiri. Oke gue emang belum cukup dewasa tapi gue udah ngerti dan berusaha untuk bisa menjadi dewasa!

Gue juga ga pintar! Ehm mungkin lebih tepatnya belum pintar!
Gue ga bisa masuk ui yang menjadi universitas idaman gue sejak gue SMP! Tapi gue GAGAL! Dan gue nangis!
Banyak yang kasih support ke gue :)

I am so blessed :) THANKS GOD :)

oke gue akui gue iri banget sama temen-temen gue yang udah dapet ui! Iri banget!
Dan ada temen gue yang bilang " lo ga bego kok wi, cuma belum beruntung aja "
gue hargai dia karena udah kasih semangat gue :) thanks.
Tapi ehm menurut gue dalam ujian masuk universitas itu ga ada kata "beruntung" dan "belum beruntung"
bagi gue orang-orang yang udah masuk ui itu bukan karena mereka beruntung tapi karena mereka pantas untuk mendapatkan ui, karena mereka pintar!
Dan gue sadar gue belum pintar untuk mendapatkan ui ( belum pintar berarti masih ada kesempatan untuk menjadi pintar kan )

ehm dan pernah teman gue juga bila ada faktor keberuntungan di hidup kita ya gue percaya itu! Iya emang ada keberuntunga dan untuk masalah tes masuk universitas emang ada keberuntungan.
Untuk yang udah masuk ui atau ptn lain mereka beruntung karena mereka pintar, usaha mereka terbayar dan mereka pantas mendapatkanya :)
dan buat gue, ya gue belum beruntung karena gue belum pintar! Gue belum beruntung karena gue ga usaha keras.

Istilahnya nih ya, mereka yang udah dapet mungkin udah sadar kekurangan mereka sebelum perang jadi mereka berusaha memperbaikinya untuk perang nanti.
Nah kalo gue pribadi, gue sadar kekurangan gue setelah gue kalah perang. :(


EHM OKAY, I AM NOT THE LUCKY ONE BUT I AM THE BLESSED ONE

Dari kegagalan itu gue belajar banyak hal, gue jadi bisa belajar bagaimana menghadapi kegagalan, gue belajar ga sombong dan ga under estimate something worth it!
Gue belajar jadi pribadi yang punya ambisi untuk mendapatkan apa yang baik buat gue, selama ini gue berusaha untuk mendapatkan apa yang gue mau padahal hal yang gue mau bukan berarti itu adalah yang baik buat gue. Dan sekarang gue sadar akan hal itu!

Semua itu melengkapi kesempurnaan hidup gue, sebelumnya dengan sempurna gue bisa masuk smp 179 karena kemauan gue dan gue berhasil, saat masuk 39 pun gue tenang aja karena nem gue cukup untuk masuk 39 dan sekarang gue gagal masuk ui! Hidup gue pun sempurna karena gue pernah berhasil dan juga gagal!
Mungkin memang Tuhan ga kasih ui untuk gue.
Hidup kita tuh kaya puzzle, nasib kita udah di set oleh Tuhan nah tinggal kita menyusunya dan mencari potongan puzzle itu!

Yang jelas sekarang gue tau maknanya, at least diri gue pribadi udah tau apa yang terjadi pada hidup gue sendiri dan gue berusaha melakuka apa yang seharusnya gue lakukan. :)

Dear God, thanks for giving me powerful parents, awesome siblings and colourful life :)

Father's SongLeon G Thomas III - August Rush

SHAYNE OROK :)

hei world :)

in this post i post all abut shayne orok hhahahha he is my idol, he is talented, and cool :D

you know, i am very very very soooooooooo lucky because shayne follows me on twitter. ohhhh goshhh i was jumping to express how happy i was :) \(^o^)/
i started to adore him since i saw him on facebook when i was on facebook. i saw his video (you're fine) on someone's profile (forget the name whose profile it was). because i really love acoustic, i really enjoy his performance with ukelele :D and then i visited his page on youtube anddddddddddddddd wow there's lots of amazing video :D i enjoyed them one by one

then i followed his twitter and i said "would you like to follow me back?"
AND GUESS WHAT? he followed me


THANKYOU SHAYNE :)

i was so very HAPY, ( my sista, winda, said that i was incredibly crazy lol)

i spread his name on twitter and facebook
then my friends responded.

they said " who is shayne orok? orok? baby? lol (in indonesia orok means baby) you must be crazy wii! what did shayne orok do to you?"

i replied "YOU MUST WATCH HIS YOUTUBE! NOW! XD"

i shared his page on chat and everybody asked "who is shayne orok?"

i answered "he is adorable! check his youtube/myspace out!"




this is shayne orok

Shayne Orok is a 17 year old musician residing in Canada who writes music to inspire and make others happy. Born September 17, 1992, he began playing music at the early age of 6 through piano lessons with a neighbourhood teacher. He also joined a choir soon after which is where he developed much of his vocal ability. Several years later, Shayne had quit both piano lessons and choir in order to pursue other styles of music. As he discovered new artists online, he grew more and more interested in the idea of posting his own material online as well. Around March 2009, Shayne uploaded his first cover song to YouTube on an existing account under the name ‘elshaynez’. Eventually, Shayne started writing his own music at the suggestion of many users commenting his videos, his first original entitled “You’re The One” (first released online in June 2009). Through constantly uploading covers and originals, he has gained quite a following online. He hopes to pursue music in the fall as he starts university in the 2010-2011 season.
(taken from lastfm)

some things you should know about me. i've been through kind of a lot with an eye cancer that i was diagnosed with when i was born. i was able to be treated, however i have lost all vision in my left eye. i have an artifical left eye and try to see the world in the most positive ways i can. to those struggling with anything right now, stay strong and don't give up. keep your head high, there is a light at the end of every tunnel. (taken from his page on myspace)


twitter Shane Orok
youtube elshaynez
facebook Shayne Orok
myspace Shayne Orok

I left you by the staircase,
Not to long ago, you were a fine young lady,
Dressed in white,
Sat in robs,
Now the tears start,
And I'm on my way home,
Worried that the worst is yet to come,
All because I'm letting you go,
Letting you go,
I've been thinking that I could find a way past my mistakes,
And for being the one that's always making you wait,
And leaving you here,
Oh that I can't deny,
I can't deny.

Now I'm left on the shores of reality.
Was I wrong,
Was I wrong for letting you fall to your knees.
Stuck in an unending tragedy.
Was I wrong,
Was I wrong, for knowing you were falling for me.
It's time to move on to a better place,
With someone else,
Cause where you are right now,
And where you want to be,
It's not with me.

My train has almost arrived,
But there's no one here with me,
Wondering why,
I've spent all this time,
Waiting for you,
Waiting for you,
Waiting for you,
But at least now I know that,
You aint comin back for me, no.
My heart is torn into pieces,
I just want you to see,
I want you to see,
All truth behind what we've been through,
There's not much left to explain,
Another man who can pay his way,
Through chances he takes,
Like leading you heart astray,
And buy the life you've always wanted,
Now the ones with happiness,
Almost every single day,
Maybe now you'll see,
Oh, were not meant to be, no.

Now I'm left on the shores of reality,
Was I wrong,
Was I wrong for letting you for fall to your knees.
Stuck in an unending tragedy.
Was I wrong,
Was I wrong, for knowing you were falling for me.
It's time to move on to a better place,
With someone else,
Cause where you are right now,
And where you want to be,
It's not with me...

shayne orok - don't pick up (original)

Give me time to think
For I've been so weary all this time
Can't seem to get you off my mind
Tell me what is left for this man to do for you
Do for you, to make you stay

Baby don't leave me
Don't leave waitin' out here in the cold
Wish you could see that
Oh your tricks are startin' to get old
Wish you could care more
But maybe that's too much for me to be askin' for
Just one more chance to be with you

Baby don't pick up the phone
If you're gonna tell me to pack up and go
Baby don't leave me, don't leave me, don't leave me alone
What's gonna happen to you
What's gonna happen to you when I'm gone
So baby don't pick up, don't pick up
And I'll hope that you won't be long
And I'll hope that you won't be long

Well I hope you know that I've been waitin' here all along
Waitin' on you to come around
I pick you up and you knock me down
You should know that I'm not that strong a man
Wonderin' why it has to be this way
Lie after lie my dreams are fadin'
They're fadin' away
Wishin' on some sort of chance
When I knew that we weren't
We weren't built, no we weren't built
We weren't built for romance

Baby don't pick up the phone
If you're gonna tell me to pack up and go
Baby don't leave me, don't leave me, don't leave me alone
What's gonna happen to you
What's gonna happen to you when I'm gone
So baby don't pick up, don't pick up
And I'll hope that you won't be long

Well this time
I'll do my best not to be such a fool
Thought fallin' for you could be so safe
Who knew it would bring me all of this pain
Well give me a reason
For what you've been doin' to me
I wanna be with you
So why can't you see?
Woah, woah, woah~

Baby don't pick up the phone
If you're gonna tell me to pack up and go
Baby don't leave me, don't leave me

What's gonna happen to you
What's gonna happen to you when I'm gone
So baby don't pick up, don't pick up
And I'll hope that you won't be long
I'll hope that you won't be long

See I'll be hopin' you won't be long

LIFE IS NOT A FAIRY TALE

perfect?

what do you think about perfect?

having fantastic bestfriend?
having lot of branded stuffs?
having most wanted boyfie?
having ideal body?
having beautiful face?
what the hell you are if you really wanna own them.you have to know those all are not perfect. you are addicted to them and they kill you insanely!


i admit that i wanna own them. sure i really want to but when i'm wondering my self with those stuff, i am, totally profoundly, helplessly, dying!
there is no life as beautiful as fairy tale
cinderella is fake, snow white does not exist, sleeping beauty is only in a dream!

05-001-307-6 LULUS

gue lulussssssssssssssssssssssssssssss :)

thanks God, i am graduated

akhirnya gue lulus juga
dari hari sabtu gue udah deg deg an banget :/ nungguin pengmuman

hari sabtu siang ayu sms gue katanya sma 39 ga lulus 4 orang dari situ gue langsung panik karena gue takut salah satu dari 4 orang itu adalah gue. Trus akhirnya gue telpon ratri dan YOU KNOW WHAT? ratri bilang sekolah gue ga lulus 100% ini makin membuat gue panik.
temen temen gue juga ga nyangka karena 39 yang selalu lulus 100% dan tahun lalu perngkat ! di dki masa ada yang ga lulus
well akhirnya hari minggu gue ga tidur nungguin jam 12 tapi.......................... web 39 belum terupdate
oke gue panik sepaniknya ampe ga bisa tidur terus mama bangun dan mama bilang
"Tuhan deket sama tiwi, Tuhan sayang sama Tiwi" kata kata itu bikin gue tenang banget dan akhirnya gue bisa tidur. zzzzzz

senin pagi gue buka web dan............................ tetap belum terupdated
gue pun telpon ratri dan kata ratri kelas kita ada yang gak lulus DUEEEER
panik tapi dia langsung bilang "lo lulus kok wi" THANKS GOD :) mama bener Tuhan sayang Tiwi :)

akhirnya gue buka web 39 dan sudah diupdate

05-001-307-6 LULUS

dan ternyata bener kelas gue 1 orang ga lulus :(
lo tau? sebenernya temen gue itu bukan orang yang bego tapi kurang beruntung! dia pinter kok. gue yakin!

eh eh eh salahhhhhhh! dia bukan GA lulus tapi BELUM lulus. masih ada ujian remedial dan gue yakin pasti lulus :)
semangat!

TRENTE NEUF itu kompak dan solid jadi nanti kita tetep wisuda bareng di balkom yaaaa :)


CONGRATS TRENTE NEUF 2010 SMA N 39

my saviour my hero my blood my breath

MAMA

mama gue hebat lhoooo
she is the real fighter, berkorban apapun demi keluarga. tenaga, uang, batin semua demi anak-anaknya.
mama baik punya jiwa sosial meskipun ada orang yang jelekin mama

I DONT CARE ABOUT THAT!!

ALL I CARE IS MAMA DO HER BEST FOR ALL SHE LOVES.

banyak banget cobaan yang Tuhan kasih buat mama, tapi mama bertahan dengan bagaimanapun cara. fitnah dari orang, diremehin orang. itu semua yang bikin gue nangis kalo tau itu semua dituduh ke mama
mereka yang fitnah mama adalah mereka yang tidak tahu apa-apa! mereka hanya parasit yang ingin exist tanpa usaha! mereka lah yang patut diremehin karena ga bisa melakukan apap-apa! talk only but do nothing!mama suka ngeluh tangannya sakit, badan yang udah mulai tua,
mama sedih anak-anaknya suka ngelawan termasuk gue tapi mama tetap ngelakuin apa aja demi anak-anaknya.she is my saviour! only her!

PAPA

papa tenang banget, papa yang selalu tenangin keadaan kalo rumah lagi ribut.
tau ga? rumah gue itu temperamental banget, setiap individu di rumah punya emosi yang tinggi.
advice dari papa luar biasa manjur.
papa orang yang sederhana bahkan ga neko-neko. papa selalu ngajarin anak-anaknya buat nikmati aja hidup yang ada sekarang. papa bilang bahwa kita ga boleh jadi budak dari ego dan nafsu kita.
papa sabaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar banget, meskipun mama suka marah-marah sama papa tapi papa tetep diem. itulah aturan permainan Tuhan kalo satu emosi yang satu harus tenang.

God's rule works very well.

Jamia Simone Nash and Impact Repertory Theater lyrics,

Raise It Up

OST AUGUST RUSH

No father figure in the house
and I’m wonderin' how I’m gonna work it out
oh, my friends keep on tellin' me how I don't need that man
but they don't really understand
there are far too many pressures in reality
but dealing with the pain and stress and poverty
and I gotta be myself because there's nobody else for me (Ohhh)

(heading there with me) sometimes it takes a different kind of love to raise a child
(so don't give up) so don't give up
(when pressures come down) sometimes it takes a different kind of dream to make you smile
(so raise it up) so raise
(hang in there with me) sometimes we need another helping hand to show the ways
(so don't give up) so don't give up
(when pressures come down) sometimes it seems impossible and that's why we pray
(so raise it up) we raise

[HOPE] seems to be nothing left for me mommas gone daddy didn’t wanna be and now im all by myself wonderin where is love or
should I just give up

life falls down on me, cuts into my soul but I know I got the strength to make it through it all cause I’m still standin
tall
breaking through this wall im gonna give my all

[HOPE] Feelin like a motherless child hate cuts into my soul its bringing me down can’t find my smile on a face of a
motherless child
I'm gonna break down these walls gonna give it my all ya know
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeahhhh
(hang in there with me) sometimes it takes a different kind of love to raise a child
(so don’t give up) so don’t give up
(when pressures come down) sometimes it takes a different kind of dream to make a smile
(so raise it up) so raise it up
(hang in there with me) raise it up
sometimes it takes another helping hand to show you the way
(so don’t give up, when pressures come down)
[HOPE] sometimes it seems impossible that’s why we pray
so raise it up

ganesha poodja

ini materi praktek agama

ini post seputar Dewa Ganesha yang gue ambil dari kaskus




Ganesa (Sanskerta गणेश) adalah salah satu dewa terkenal dalam agama Hindu dan banyak dipuja oleh umat Hindu, yang memiliki gelar sebagai Dewa pengetahuan dan kecerdasan, Dewa pelindung, Dewa penolak bala/bencana dan Dewa kebijaksanaan. Lukisan dan patungnya banyak ditemukan di berbagai penjuru India; termasuk Nepal, Tibet dan Asia Tenggara. Dalam relief, patung dan lukisan, ia sering digambarkan berkepala gajah, berlengan empat dan berbadan gemuk. Ia dikenal pula dengan nama Ganapati, Winayaka dan Pilleyar. Dalam tradisi pewayangan, ia disebut Bhatara Gana, dan dianggap merupakan salah satu putera Bhatara Guru (Siwa). Berbagai sekte dalam agama Hindu memujanya tanpa mempedulikan golongan. Pemujaan terhadap Ganesa amat luas hingga menjalar ke umat Jaina, Buddha, dan di luar India.

Meskipun ia dikenal memiliki banyak atribut, kepalanya yang berbentuk gajah membuatnya mudah untuk dikenali. Ganesa mahsyur sebagai "Pengusir segala rintangan" dan lebih umum dikenal sebagai "Dewa saat memulai pekerjaan" dan "Dewa segala rintangan" (Wignesa, Wigneswara), "Pelindung seni dan ilmu pengetahuan", dan "Dewa kecerdasan dan kebijaksanaan". Ia dihormati saat memulai suatu upacara dan dipanggil sebagai pelindung/pemantau tulisan saat keperluan menulis dalam upacara.Beberapa kitab mengandung anekdot mistis yang dihubungkan dengan kelahirannya dan menjelaskan ciri-cirinya yang tertentu.

Ganesa muncul sebagai dewa tertentu dengan wujud yang khas pada abad ke-4 sampai abad ke-5 Masehi, selama periode Gupta, meskipun ia mewarisi sifat-sifat pelopornya pada zaman Weda dan pra-Weda.
Ketenarannya naik dengan cepat, dan ia dimasukkan di antara lima dewa utama dalam ajaran Smarta (sebuah denominasi Hindu) pada abad ke-9. Sekte para pemujanya yang disebut Ganapatya, (Sanskerta: गाणपत्य; gāṇapatya), yang menganggap Ganesa sebagai dewa yang utama, muncul selama periode itu.
Kitab utama yang didedikasikan untuk Ganesa adalah:
Ganesapurana,
Mudgalapurana, dan
Ganapati Atharwashirsa.

ini mantra ganesha buat praktek agama gue

Om Ekadanta Ya Vidmahi
Vakratunda Ya Dimahi
Tannoh Dantih Parcodayat

belajar ato ngobrol?

kemaren gue lisa ika dan daniel belajar bareng lhoooooooooo

tapi tapi bukanya belajar malah ngobrol
well pertamanya sih emang belajar tapi lama2 jadi ngobrol

eh gue baru pertama kali lho ketemu @shashasoy

hihi yaudah gosip lah kita, tapi ga gosip banyak juga sih soalnya kalo gosip terang-terangan bisa frontal banget kalo daniel tahu haha

I miss STULA

gue kangen stulaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
kangen banget


STULA itu singkatan dari Studi-Lapangan di Bandung. gue kangen banget sama suasana STULA, suasana di hotel, di kampung Naga, Di Bis. wuaaa
hari ptama. dari sekolah kita ke kampung naga. jauhhhhhhh banget... klo kesana sihh enak cuma turun tangga,... tappiiii pulangnya.. wuaaa kaki udah mau copot. bayangin aja harus naikin tangga yang jumlahnya 300 lebih anak tangga... (knp ga dibikin eskalator sii???), trus ke kampung pulo yang jumlah rumahnya cuma ada 6 rumah plus satu mesjid... dan gue hampir tenggelam waktu pulang.. jd ceritanya,, untuk menuju kampung pulo harus melewati danau karena kampung pulo berada di sebuah pulau di tengah danau.. trus pas pulang tiba-tiba perahu rakitnya miring ke depan krn terlalu berat beban di depan dari pada di belakang... alhasih sepatu gue BASAH dengan SEMPURNA..

trus hari kedua yaaa berkunjung ke mana ya??? (lupa) oyaa ke saung mang ujo.. eh eh eh ada anak kecil lucuuuuuu bnget lg maen angklung.. mau gue bawa pulang tuh tp keburu nyadar diri.. haha well... saat2 paling berkesan tuh pas di bis... kita berDISCO IN THE BUS.. hahaha.. HAVING FUN bgt dah.. lampu bis gelap.. MP3 dari yg mulai slow-rock-melayu dannnn pilihan terakhir dangdut dinyalain dengan suara gedeee banget.. poll banget dahhhh

hari ketiga... yahhh pisah sama hotel,, ama tour guide yang kata ije dan sinta kasep pisan euyy pisah sama bandung :(

ije didepan salah satu rumah penduduk kampung naga

ayu lagi meluk fosil di museum geologi

gue dan ratri pinggiran sungai kampung naga nih

gue dan ika foto di depan cermin cembung (SABUGA)

That was unforgettable moment!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Curhatan pelajar tak ada kerjaan

Oke gua ga tau mau nulis apa, yang jelas gua pengen banget nulis!!! Bosen banget ini gue. Kenapa bosen? Karena ga ada kerjaan!

Sekarang posisi gue ada di perpustakaan SMA N 39 tercintaaaaa
ngapain? Lagi ga jelas banget! Gue lagi sama christi nih, tapi dia tidur -_- dan gue lagi blogging ga jelas gini setelah sebelumnya gue bolak balik buka fb, twitter dan twitter lagi trus fb lagi dan gitu aja seterusnya.
Kalo aja TV di sini bisa dinyalain mungkin gue mending nonton tv nih, tapi sayangnya remote tv nya dimana???

Ah nyesel banget nih gue masuk! Dari tadi di sekolah gue ke kantin trus ke perpus trus ntar ngapain ya??

di kelas lagi ngapain ya? Lagi pelajaran agama pastinya.

Udah ah pokoknya detik ini gue sedang bosen tak ada kerjaan di perpustakaan sma n 39 ku tercinta

WAKE UP Adam Swink feat Chelsea Lee

gue suka banget ini lagu

you shoud watch this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ax4UhkAixCc

VERSE
Wake up sweet heart
We’re going out for a ride
Don’t worry I’ll drive
Twisting roads, are slowly fading away
We’re all living better days

PRE-CHORUS
I’m just trying
To find out what’s been missing
Here with you

CHORUS
I know you can’t see me
But I feel you need me
(I) Can’t live with out your heart
I know you can’t hear me
But I am dreaming
That you’ll wake up

VERSE
Come on honey
We’re running out of sunshine
Cause all the roses have died
Hearts are beating
But they’re way out of time, out of time.

But all I’m trying
Is to overcome the distance
It’s all for you
And all I wanted
Was just a early morning
To wake up with you

CHORUS
I know you can’t see me
But I am dreaming
That you’ll wake up
ADAM - I know you can’t hear me
But I feel you near me
Can’t live with out your heart

Can you see me
Can you see me
Can you hear me
Can you hear me

GOODBYE FRIENDSHIP HELLO HEARTACHE
-cinematic sunrise-

Goodbye friendship and a life I once knew

Hello heartache, the second meeting came too soon

I admit it, I still think about those times when I was with you So I'll drown these memories until this bottle turns empty And I'll pray the feeling ends

And then I'll run away from you
Where you can't hurt me any further
I know just what to do
You give me hope when you know it's over

No more phone calls, don't tell me that you miss our talks
Quit saying sorry, cause sorry doesn't say enough

I admit it, I still think about those times when I was with you
So I'll drown these memories until this bottle turns empty
And I'll pray the feeling ends

And then I'll run away from you
Where you can't hurt me any further
I know just what to do
You give me hope when you know it's over

I'll run away from you
I'll run away from you

And then I'll run away from you
Where you can't hurt me any further
I know just what to do,
You give me hope when you know it's over

Wasn't I good enough for you?

UAN SELESEI! Relax for a while

Akhirnya uan selesei (Y) HELL YEAH LOVE IT!
Gue udah usaha semoga Tuhan mendukung gue
semoga gue lulus! (Y)

soal uan lebih susah dari to! GILAAA! 5 hari ujian gue agak nyantai mungkin ya, tapi ga kata gue doang kok. Banyak yang bilang soal uan emang lebih susah dari to!

Apapun soalnya gue udah ngerjain sebisa otak gue dan sebisa gue nyontek haha! Semoga gue lulus

orang-orang yang gue tanya : harry, rathia, imeh, arli. thanks yoo

tapi tadi pas hari terakhir ujian ada kejadian duka! Tepatnya duka buat abi. Hp nya abi ilang, moga-moga kalo ilang cepet ketemu dan kalo di ambil orang tuh orang cepet balikin hp abi.

Kalo kata pak jun, kejadian ini ada hikmahnya, semoga aja kelas xii sos 1 lulus terbaik dengan nilai TERBAIK! Amin
Sabar ya bi.....

Gud luck trente neuf! Gud luck xii ips 1 2010

wish i could own you

Dear hipo, I wanna be yours!
I wanna be your pillow,
I wanna be your music,
I wanna be your laugh,

day by day you fade away but then you come with old hopes then you fade away then you come.
Dear hipo, why you do this to me?

I'm not as beauty as her
I'm not as smart as her
but
you have to know!
I'm faith as I AM
I LOVE
I CARE

you do change my view, you blind me, you alter my life
you do those thing perfectly.

Chats and laughs we make are my hope.


And i'm ready for ignorance
...
because
...
Loving you is hurt


I LOVE YOU

graduated from LIA ! :) thanks God

akhirnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
lulus juga gue dari LIAwahhhhhgak nyangka udah lulus aja, dari in-1 sampai akhirnya gue lulus Hi-4
seneng banget. tapi sedih juga :( karena sebenernya banyak memory selama dua tahun gue les di LIA. kangen sama temen2 di LIA
ayu, kak yakin, dita, frita, yang udah keluar duluan trus dini, kiki, lidya, bkti, kak lidya, isma semua di 207 :'( will miss you all guys :"""(
kangen deh gosipin orang, especially gosipin penghuni baru yang cowok haha
kangen belajar buat final testkangen kangen kangen kangennnnnnnnnnnn
those memories make me soooooooo sad.
tapi seneng juga akhirnya gue bisa istirahat tiap hari sabtu
ga perlu lewatin rel, ga perlu macet di jati negara, wahhhhhhhh
tapi pokoknya gue kangen masa-masa les di LIA :''(

ini foto gue candid pas presentasi akhir

lidya, kiki, dini :)

ini bakti yang sering jarkom

laras lagi bantu kak linota pakai cosplay

ini si 'bunga' isma

kiki dan lidya ,' the youngest'

Fresh fresh fresh! The new one does exist

HEYOOOUU
WHAT'S UP?
Hei, my alohomora! Apa kabar?
Post gue yang lamaaa banget itu yang tentang si dodol hipo itu udah gue hapus. Maaf ya :D

Kenapa diapus? Alesanya karena yaaa ehm karena gue mau lupain dia. Haha sebelum gue hapus nah gue baca dulu trus gue jadi senyumsenyum sendiri gitu deh :) :) :)
tapi ya pasti lah nangis juga.
Ehm to be honest, i can't bug out on him
:'(
tapi pokoknya gue dan dia ga mungkin jadi lebih dari sekedar teman! Ya sincerely, i admit it!
Huhuhu hipo hipo hipo you ever be a meaningfull one, a part of my memory :)

oke setelah gue hapus semua tentang hipo semoga perasaan gue buat dia juga udah terhapus. Meskipun susah!

Nah di blog ini gue mau curhat cerita marah seneng dan lain lain lah,
oya, mungkin gue bakal nulis masa masa akhir SMA gue di sini.
At least sebelum gue wisuda, gue punya kenangan tentang masa sma yang gue tulis :) . Gue tau, telat banget baru nulis sekarang, yaah abis mau gmana lagi, dulu kan gue nulis cuma buat si dodol hipo
hahaha he drove me insane. Hahahahaiii

oke lah, i'll post as much as i can

ps: minggu ini gue lagi uan. doain gue lulus ya, xoxo